motivation

There are times when I just can't think of writing a single line. I'd like to write and I do imagine myself writing and I do enjoy writing, but I don't seem to have the inspiration. I guess this must be something similar with every writer - those of the lesser kind, that is.

But this is not my main topic.

It is motivation.

The story I'm writing about is a bit strange. Or is it an ordinary story with strange characters?

Nevermind.

The reason behind their behaviour(s) and feeling(s) is the motivation, right?

And that's where I'm troubled now: am I to give, depict and detail the motivation or rather, am I to leave it mysterious as it is a bit to me?

I have to make things clear in my head.

What are MY motives?

Am I to let the protagonist act on his/her free will OR am I to analyse him/her?

Who's the main character? Is it him/her or me?

Am I more important and wise? Or am I just peeping into someone else's life?

Am I to give life to him/her - or am I only allowed to enter his/her life as a visitor?

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and finally: am I to define myself as a writer?

that is: am I to consider myself as one and if the answer is yes, am I to declare and attach a style of writing to me? will that confine me or liberate me? why all these nonsense creep into my mind? why am I so unsure of myself?

of being able to finish it off?

where is my confidence?

what am I to do once I finished with the 'job' ?

will writing all the way through worth all the trouble I feel?

does anyone around feel like this?